To have a grasp on something
yet know it's so far away.
Having once felt its warmth and protection
just to feel it all fade one day.
Feeling completely helpless
when I once felt empowerment and love.
Knowing there's nothing you can do,
but keep push from turning to shove.
To feel yourself changing from hurt and desperation,
to anger, confusion, hate and rage.
Only to watch as your life crashes down
through the bars of your little locked cage.
Everyone pointing and laughing,
as your heart gets torn apart.
A way to describe it, there is none,
hell on earth would be a good way to start.
Your only warmth and comfort,
are the tears rolling off your cheek,
as silence now takes the place
of the kind words he used to speak.
No longer do I feel his arms around me,
or see the love in his eyes.
Instead I get the cold shoulder,
those looks have turned into despise.
Not once an explination,
for the aching of my soal
or the confusion wrapped around my mind,
spinning me out of control.
No apology for the pain you cause,
not once do you say you will leave,
just utter frustration caused by you,
and the new reality I'm forced to conceive.
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