|a father's fate|
quite frankly, i am scared
you always were the backbone
holding us all together especially when we became
frazzled by emotions, you told us to look outside the
box and see the bigger picture, putting things into
perspective for us.
you tried the hardest you could,
a faithful husband, loving father,
worked in a tie that choked up your throat,
forcing you to hold deep inside all those remarks that
were begging to be said, forcing yourself to choose
us over your happiness,
when i was younger, you were much different,
eager to show me the world taking me places
eyeopening experiences which will forever embark
themselves on my journey of life.
galleries, museums, cities, beaches, exciting rides,
you showed me how to conquer my fear, and
ignore the emotions that prevented me from living my
life to the fullest.
you always were the strength to us,
never once had i seen you tear up or be anything
more than mildly dissatisfied,
you always had been an expert at hiding your
quite frankly i am scared,
now facing a life altering condition, it is what every
daughter might fear, the cancer within you might win,
and i would only be left with memories we spent
too caught up with the corporate world, i had not seen
my father for quite some years now, but i miss him,
and now that you are faced with this battle,
i am forced to see my worst nightmare; seeing my
own father weak beyond imagine.
i don't know how to stay strong for you,
you taught me how to bury my emotions,
but sometimes it's harder to keep everything inside,
i wonder how you are doing, with this recent set of
events all i see is you continuing everyday life.
after being told you might not live to see the next year.
i realized, i've never seen you cry
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